18 months—
it’s been 18 months since my last project ‘antique’. antique was my debut album that i dropped february 24, 2024. my so called self debut album to the world. showcasing the 4 years of keeping myself locked in my bedroom, learning, studying, from many greats. dissecting. entering and exiting the matrix if you will.
i really did lock myself in my room.
no parties, no drinking, no smoking, no drugs, (well maybe a little), no life at all, just a ghost amongst the living. it was just me and endless hours staying up until i can see the sun beams through the cracks of my blacked out curtains (kids dont do drugs.) days turned to nights that lasted continuously for 3 days straight. fueled by top ramen leftovers and powered by coconut water. I was riding this wave of inspiration sparked by melodies. melodies that wouldn’t leave my mind no matter how much i tried to sleep. i even lit candles, turned on white noise, even a fan AND humidifier, to try and calm my mind. but to no prevail.
it echoed, and reverberated constantly, like skipping rocks across a pond. melodies that would encapsulate me, and inevitably keep me awake. often at times i would talk to myself, “am i going crazy?” i would respond back to myself, ‘absolutely, you are’. I was walking the thin line between crazed, and the insane. i knew i had the belief in me, with a little more patience, i can master this music shit, and that i am a fucking god.
these melodies would soon engulf my whole being. from the moment i wake up, leave the house, work 14 hours, and constantly for the next 4 years. still to this day, as i am writing you, from my kitchen, with a small handheld fan, my ipad filled with upcoming designs, my water bottle, with no water, freshly brewed coffee turned cold, listening to my upcoming unreleased music in the background. the melodies, are… still reverberating.
i’ve completed everything i wanted to accomplish and so much more by staying locked in (i don’t recommend it to anyone, because you’ll end up stir crazy. unless however you like talking to yourself, making new friends with your imagination, then knock yourself out).
with the next next release, my double album, entitled ‘the city: a poem for l.a.’ i’ve incorporated, all that i am, an audio biography, if that makes sense. my love for art, film making, story telling, melodies, booming 808’s, hard kicks, smacking snares, percussions galore, future alienated sounds, and lastly, poetry. the internet is a scary place but i have been fortunate to have met some incredible and inspiring minds, within the poetry community.
reading many of their poems, and literary works, it’s come to my conclusion that the poetry community really do deserve their flowers. to be heard on a broader spectrum than just posting it on social, and a few blogs here and there. i felt it was limiting, because such like artists or musicians, poets need to be seen and most of all, heard. to show my appreciation, this double album will include spoken word, from those beautiful souls.
A POEM FOR L.A (DOUBLE ALBUM) 2.4.26
- lawrence
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